What are some of the decision challenges you face in your organization?
a) How can you overcome those challenges?
b) How will that affect the behaviour of your colleagues?

these are the few questions that i'm supposed to work on for my OB discussion board for school... what to write, for someone who's not a decision maker?

i now also have another decision on hand which i got to think about, and to come to a decision, after the advice from a number of pple. but still deciding. not yet decided.

should i move forth. accept the challenge.
how should i fight for my rights? in an environment that is filled with all the angmohs. do i have the courage? do i have the techniques? would i fail?

"think about what you want in life, how you want to live it" i was told by my MD when i was in his room just this evening. He macro manages, DMD micro manage. DMD is fire, he's water. he turns to god for advice and support. (so is this preaching, no la, dont think so). anyway yeah, i got to know what i wanna do, how i wanna portray myself. all these exposure has Exposed many of my weaknesses. my lack of confidence.

just hope that my decision is the right one.
even if its not right, i'll make sure it works out!!!

a couple of things happened recently.

1) school commenced. commencement of 1st module.
2) excitement in the work place.
3) my bday is just round the corner.
4) tired of being the insensitive brat, attitude bitch, gulible little girl.

school commenced le. just only. so its still manageable.
my brother saw the notes the first comment is " good luck"
gosh. is it that bad?

work place, suddenly some stiffling, some adjustment, some energy surges, some undercurrents. a little bit dangerous, yet full of anticipation

bday round the corner, arranging to meet up with a few groups of friends. hopefully can meet up with buddy too. been some time le since we last met.

yup. sick and tired of being termed as "attitude" " insensible" "naive"
time to grow up. root cause of the problem. i still dont wanan grow up

19th october

right now, its counting down. haha.
2 meanings to it.
1, he's finally coming back.
2, commencement of school.

i was just downloading and getting ready the documents, files and files of text for reading, just for 1 module at the moment. what would happen if eventually i end up with 3 in end, when 1 starts, and is half way through i got to take up another module. how am i to cope. panic!!!!

from now to 1 year later. i would think by next year nearing my birthday, i should be more or less used to the style, the habit and the changed lifestyle.
i see a foreign future. a future and lifestyle that will be so different from mine.
excited, anxious and worried.

2nd update for the month

a whole new week of singlehood.

actually come to think about it, its almost filled already.

school is startgin next week. just completed my online orientation.
alot of reading up to do. lets just hope that things will move on well.
serioulsy from the look of it. its gonna get more intensive. just the orientation, we're supposed to do discussions, self intro etc. 2 different assignments le. nervous and excited at the same time.

at least now i can put my mind down to settle that.
one thing at a time.

i promise myself.not to care and worry. work as a team.
complete the work to the best i can.
since there's challenge, step up to it.
got to be independent.

gambatte neh!!!

13th to 19th October

I'll miss you during this period of time.

3rd Quarter

it does seem taht my updates come in quarters.

suddenly an influx of information and updates from those close to heart.
"i'm balloting for unit at punggol"
"oh, i'm balloting for unit at punggol too"
"i might be looking at kallang area.."
"hmm... he's looking at resale flats too.."
"oh welcome to my new place...."

haha. everyone is in the midst of preparing for their next phase of life.
its contagious. very contagious... haha. nope. i'm not applying on my side.
cause for 1 simply reason - no cash. hee.

recently no more into salsa already. but then not really a pity.
i've got to know a very close group of friends. there are funny pple in there. one who loves spinning girls around and thought that he can dance very well; one whom is not very good but then has the passion (guided by me, haha); there are those with all the passion, all the energy, all the time, all the effort and all the talent to complete and enjoy in the dance.

i realise i'm someone who can either excel very well in it, or just suffer in it.
haha. too concious of ple, creates for the motivation to work harder, but then if pple are not appreciating it, the drop in morale back to ground is even worse. haha. so well. that sort of summarizes the whole salsa for me, and me for salsa already. i realised.

anyway no more salsa already. going to embark in another new "hobby" earnign money. going to get more tuition i hope. earn more save more. haha. save more travel more. woohoo. haha. like real.


anyway, sense of insecurity crept up on me.
either at work or within myself. and the feeling just cannot get off. my left eye has been twitching nonstop. not a very good sign.

at a slight lost.

so many things to do.

so many new things and experience in my life.

within the past week, so many first times.

looking forward to the new me in the near future.